I find myself asking for rain everyday coz I like it when the sky cries it makes me feel less pathetic for feeling like I need to let go of all composure.I find myself wishing for thunder so I can stand outside and just scream while having the mask of the thunder to ensure no one will hear.I find myself praying that night times will come so I can sit in a corner and hide from everything but knowing since its dark everywhere no one will know my actions.I find myself searching for whatever it is that’s making me so weak, making me so vulnerable and messed up. I am trying with all I’ve got to be happy and when there’s people around to lie to it’s so easy but when I’m alone there’s nothing I can do except be this person I so desperately don’t want to be. !