Letter To Lord

Letter To Lord

Dear Lord,
I don't like being yet another insignificant one in your world of crores. My dreams are tired, and I don't have an answer when they look at me, hurt.
It's easy for you, isn't it, making and breaking dreams, hopes, empires, hearts...? Does it matter to you if someone gets killed on his way to ur temple? Do you like it when in turn his relatives call upon you to render him peace in heaven? Isn't that sadistic?
Do you and your mates up there laugh at us, when you see how we're trying to be in control, while you have the remote-control to our destinies? Do you feel gratified when someone seeks your blessings? Do you grant wishes only when we beg for them?
Are you up there, smiling? Do you die? Are you ever going to grow up, and stop playing games?!

I find myself asking for rain everyday coz I like it when the sky cries it makes me feel less pathetic for feeling like I need to let go of all composure.I find myself wishing for thunder so I can stand outside and just scream while having the mask of the thunder to ensure no one will hear.I find myself praying that night times will come so I can sit in a corner and hide from everything but knowing since its dark everywhere no one will know my actions.I find myself searching for whatever it is that’s making me so weak, making me so vulnerable and messed up. I am trying with all I’ve got to be happy and when there’s people around to lie to it’s so easy but when I’m alone there’s nothing I can do except be this person I so desperately don’t want to be. !

Thanks ..!!

Want to blurt, want to cry, want to yell... but i wont!
Coz I know I deserve this pain. Thanks for making me realise...

Strange !

Written on a paper addresed to Me-

" Don't try to understand your life. You might be shocked to find yourself missing! "